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Name: sam
Birthday: 7/4/1993
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| well tonight i wont be able to update!!
but i'll just fill you in now and tell you all i've eaten so far is a bagel. go me! haha great day. love feeling light as a feather.
OHEMGEE and new stats! how could i forget!
ready?
128.5!
just going down from here! lovelovelove
well im off to a party/dance thing tonight so woo im pumped...except greg's going to be there so i hope it's not awkward! just -he keeps telling me he wants to hook up with me and misses me so much... but i just don't think tonight is the right night for that considering the circumstances...
but he knows i want to hook up with rands...
idk whatevs i'll just go with the flow.
just AGH I DONT WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW about me and him or w.e... and he intimidates me...
agh well im excited. love an excuse to dress up!
and love you girlies! <333333
note: no worries, it's not what im wearing tonight.. only to dinner :]
pray i dont get too drunk and yack tonight NO FUN. i neeeed to take it easy... but still have a lil' fun ;)
yours trulyyy,
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| why? because i have not been UPDATING. by not updating im just keeping myself off track. UGH and i KNOW i've been eating like a pig. which is BAD bad bad i have to be skinny for tomorrow! (a dance, i need to look hotz!)
SO: (and i dont care HOW shitty this is.. it NEEDS TO BE DONE. its only to help me sam. shh shh)
intake:
700
and that's without dinner... fuck me... this better fucking speed up my metab.
outtake:
tba
total:
tba
water:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8
wake up sam. you NEED this.
you. must. lose.
no... you will lose.
ttyl,
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| Hi all,
Soooo sorry I didn't update yesterday. Not only was I on the phone with greg alllll fuckin night long (its a good thing I think :) haha) I kinda ate shitty so I thought -"why bother?"
BUT no fear. I plan to starve today and update of course! Haha. I'm in a good mood so I think that eating very little shall be easy. I just wish I remembered to bring a water bottle to school (always makes it easier for me).
So yeah
Oh id also like to take the time to just thank all you guys for always being so supportive and giving advice -I really appreciate it. So thanks to all my friends and subs. You guys are a huuuge support system!
Much luuuv,
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| intake:
540
outtake:
tba
total:
tba
water:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8
i love it when he calls me "baby" and i want to hold those butterflies captive forever.
....FUCK im attached... and so far it's feeling great.
[edit]
did i mention that im officially at 129 ? how lovely, right? :]
just lovely,
lovely,
lovely.
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| intake:
150
outtake:
tba
total:
tba
i had a pig out day. whatever :]
water:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8
so greg called me lastnight in the wee hours... because i had been texting him telling him how our flirting has to stop especially if it's most likely going to end messy and people are going to talk and it's just not worth it... i basically tell him that every night. and every night he argues against it. so he called me last night, and for the first time...i got butterflies just from the fucking sound of his voice. i told him that. and i got SO mad at myself. it's not fair he's not allowed to give me butterflies. a) im not allowed to get attatched. and b) it shows im weaker than him.. im losing our game.. but then he told me later "sam, im getting attatched too,"
the worst part? a voice came out of my mouth -god only knows from where- BEGGING, and i mean begging, him not to hang up.
FUCK THIS IS BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD bad bad bad...
no one can know about this.
SHITTY. i am determined to cut out my behavior and restrain with all my might. this situation is ridiculous. sam never gets butterflies. HAH... it was probably my cold... yeah.
ttyl girlies,
[edit]
ps. today i am going to be cleaning up my friends.. like people who don't comment and i dont comment to are being deleted. so if you want to be my friend, make an effort ya know haha. otherwise feel free to sub! haha basically im just going to be deleting people who haven't been on their xanga since god knows when..
oh and greg called me like literally 3 times today... i'll talk about that later though.. if i feel up to it.. im kind of exhausted from it all haha.
[edit]
greg was on the phone with me for over an hour. every time he said babe i felt so bright. this is terrifying. i fucking hate it. ARGH.
jesus sam..what are you doing...
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